By the time you read this, I’ll be on my way to NYC for what will undoubtedly be one of the most moving, vulnerable, and life-changing experiences yet. I know that when I return from my time in the Big Apple, I will have expanded, shifted, and grown even deeper into the understanding of myself and my life’s work. That’s pretty huge and also intimidating to know how much of a shift I’m going to feel in my life. Needless to say, I’m feeling nervous and excited all at the same time.
Which got me thinking long and hard about uncertainty.
So much of life is unknown. I still think back to when my mom died. I had no idea just days before losing her that I was going to become motherless and that she would be gone forever. I remember saying goodbye to her as she walked out the door. I gave her a hug, thinking she’d be back in no time, because that’s what she did. She came back. She was my mom. It still moves me to tears when I think about how I literally had no idea that she would never walk back through that door again.
It made me realize that we have no control. As much as we want things to go exactly our way or on our timeline, we are setting ourselves up for even greater disappointment by doing this.
Some experiences in life are traumatic, some are nerve-wracking, some are scary, and some bring us greater blessings and happiness than we ever could have imagined. It is when we step outside our comfort zone (whether we step out willingly or the Universe pushes us out there) that we grow and expand.
Recommended Reading: My Solo Trip to New York City
This weekend, as I head to Manhattan, I’m scared sh*tless. I have no idea what to expect. Who I’m going to meet. Where I’m going to eat. How it’s going to feel stepping out into the middle of the city that never sleeps. The things that are going to come up for me in this experience. What I’m going to learn about myself. About my business. About life. But I’m going. I’m taking the leap. I’m investing in myself because I know, and I trust, that fear is a compass. It’s leading me toward a lesson, a great adventure, that I need to grow through in order to get where I need to be.
Standing still, we will get nowhere.
Take the leap.
Invest in yourself.
Accept that you aren’t perfect and there is SO much still left for you to learn. But to learn it, you must open your arms up to the Universe and shout, “SHOW ME THE WAY.”
Release your need for control. Every single day. Release your need to know what’s going to happen. Open your heart up to possibility.
I haven’t decided yet whether or not I’ll be blogging while I’m in New York as I won’t have much free time BUT I will most definitely be sharing my experience on Instagram and would LOVE for you to follow along: